Freedom to be Honest

I saw an interview on cnn.com with Josh McDowell concerning the upcoming "Set Free Summit" and it made an impression on me.  I was not able to find the original video, but basically Josh McDowell was talking about the problems of pornography within modern culture and especially taking aim at the issue in the church.  He is a skilled writer, speaker, and apologist, but what impacted me in that short video was the freedom he had in speaking about his own painful childhood experience of suffering sexual abuse for years.  He candidly mentioned his abuser's full name, and the interviewer seemed surprised he was so candid.  But Josh went on to explain he had spoken to the man as an adult, forgave him for his cruelty, and that his abuser had passed away years ago.  The interview continued as normal, but it struck me how Josh McDowell's candor was quite abnormal - and a good thing.  Josh credits God with healing his heart and mind, and he shares his story not to shame his abuser, to dredge up pity for himself, but to encourage others to discover the healing and freedom only Jesus Christ can bring.

Many people tragically face abuse in their past quite alone, and the power their abuser once held over them weighs upon them heavily as they attempt to hide their past abuse, confusion, and current pain.  The pain people experience in this life as a result of sin is legion, and trying to cover up or deny the past causes pain to be multiplied.  Such concealment creates a perfect environment for a root of bitterness to grow.  Whether we have been innocent victims of wickedness or have been the cause of pain for others, Christ's blood washes us from guilt and shame.  Apostle Paul, when defending himself before King Agrippa, did not hide his misguided and violent past.  He said candidly in Acts 26:9-11, "Indeed, I myself thought I must do many things contrary to the name of Jesus of Nazareth. ¹⁰ This I also did in Jerusalem, and many of the saints I shut up in prison, having received authority from the chief priests; and when they were put to death, I cast my vote against them. ¹¹ And I punished them often in every synagogue and compelled them to blaspheme; and being exceedingly enraged against them, I persecuted them even to foreign cities."  Paul's past involved persecuting Christians, but he did not sweep it under the rug.  On the biggest stage of his life he was open and honest concerning his past faults, all to the end he might testify publicly of his transformation for the glory of Jesus Christ.

What Josh McDowell did in publicly speaking of past abuse he suffered showed the powerful feelings of shame, fear, and pain no longer had an unhealthy grip on him.  He had not forgotten, but he had forgiven.  No longer was he ensnared in the bondage of guilt or bitterness, but in trusting God and forgiving others he discovered freedom.  A relationship with God had redeemed his life and forever altered his perspective.  I in no way wish to minimise the pain of abuse or to suggest coming to Christ will make life easier or take all your problems away.  The point is all sin, whether inflicted by others upon us or through us, gains power and strength when we try to conceal it.  It is only after we admit we are hurting we will consent to see a doctor, and only after we admit our addictions and failures will we seek help outside ourselves.  Simply broadcasting our painful past or present hell does nothing to free us from guilt or heal our hearts, but Jesus can do all if we will humble ourselves before Him.  When we have been delivered from guilt and sin there is no need to pretend we are perfect.  It is Jesus who transforms us by His grace, and those freed from the burden of guilt are free to be perfectly honest.  When we experience this in our lives or in others, it is most refreshing.