The Steward and Young John

Yesterday I leafed through a book by C.S. Lewis titled The Pilgrim's Regress, and it is one of the more clever and thought-provoking allegorical tales he wrote.  Perhaps the most memorable moment for me is when young John is brought to meet the "Steward" (a minister) who spoke concerning the "Landlord" who represents God.  Lewis presents a scene which brilliantly conveys how confusion, hypocrisy and lack of integrity are blights that obscure the Gospel message and the love of God from people.  With supreme focus on behaviour rather than the heart, using fear to control rather than sharing God's love which liberates, it is a masterful presentation of legalistic religion without a relationship with Jesus.  All I can say is, enjoy--and take it to heart so we as Christians do not resemble the Steward to the young Johns in our lives.

"...The Steward lived in a big dark house of stone of the side of the road.  The father and mother went in to talk to the Steward first, and John was left sitting in the hall on a chair so high that his feet did not reach the floor.  There were other chairs in the hall where he could have sat in comfort, but his father had told him that the Steward would be very angry if he did not sit absolutely still and be very good:  and John was beginning to be afraid, so he sat still in the high chair with his feet dangling, and his clothes itching all over him, and his eyes starting out of his head.  After a very long time his parents came back again, looking as if they had been with the doctor, very grave.  Then they said that John must go in and see the Steward too.  And when John came into the room, there was an old man with a red, round face, who was very kind and full of jokes, so that John quite got over his fears, and they had a good talk about fishing tackle and bicycles.  But just when the talk was at its best, the Steward got up and cleared his throat.  He then took down a mask from the wall with a long white beard attached to it and suddenly clapped it on his face, so that his appearance was awful.  And he said, "Now I am going to talk to you about the Landlord.  The Landlord owns all the country, and it is very, very kind of him to allow us to live on it at all--very, very kind.'  He went on repeating 'very kind' in a queer sing-song voice so long that John would have laughed, but that now he was beginning to be frightened again.  The Steward then took down from a peg a big card with small print all over it, and said, 'Here is a list of all the things the Landlord says you must not do.  You'd better look at it.'  So John took the card:  but half the rules seemed to forbid things he had never heard of, and the other half forbade things he was doing every day and count not imagine not doing:  and the number of the rules was so enormous that he felt he could never remember them all.  'I hope,' said the Steward, 'that you have not already broken any of the rules?'  John's heart began to thump, and his eyes bulged more and more, and he was at his wit's end when the Steward took the mask off and looked at John with his real face and said, 'Better tell a lie, old chap, better tell a lie.  Easiest for all concerned,' and popped the mask on his face all in a flash.  John gulped and said quickly, 'Oh, no, sir,'  'That is just as well,' said the Steward through the mask.  "Because, you know, if you did break any of them and the Landlord got to know of it, do you know what he'd do to you?'  'No, sir,' said John:  and the Steward's eyes seemed to be twinkling dreadfully through the holes of the mask.  'He'd take you and shut you up for ever and ever in a black hole full of snakes and scorpions as large as lobsters--for ever and ever.  And besides that, he is such a kind, good man, so very, very kind, that I am sure you would never want to displease him.'  'No, sir,' said John.  'But please, sir...' 'Well, said the Steward.  'Please, sir, supposing I did break one, one little one, just by accident, you know.  Could nothing stop the snakes and lobsters?"  'Ah!...' said the Steward; and then he sat down and talked for a long time, but John could not understand a single syllable.  However, it all ended with pointing out that the Landlord was quite extraordinarily kind and good to his tenants, and would certainly torture most of them to death the moment he had the slightest pretext.  "any you can't blame him,' said the Steward.  'For after all, it is his land, and it is so very good of him to let us live here at all--people like us, you know.'  Then the Steward took off the mask and had a nice, sensible chat with John again, and gave him a cake and brought him out to his father and mother.  But just as they were going he bent down and whispered in John's ear, 'I shouldn't bother about it all too much if I were you.'  At the same time he slipped the card of the rules into John's hand and told him he could keep it for his own use."  (Lewis, C. S. The Pilgrim’s Regress: An Allegorical Apology for Christianity, Reason and Romanticism. 3rd ed., Fount, 1990. pages 29-31)

Living by God's Grace

Recently I came across an article that focused on "voluntary assisted dying" that seemed to be a propaganda piece that praised those who pursue dying on their "own terms" as having immense courage.  I do not believe suicide--whether medically assisted or not--is in itself a badge of courage.  Greater courage can be shown in choosing to live despite pain and a terminal diagnosis--looking to the LORD who gave us life in the first place.

One thing that is often missing when the "taboo" subject of assisted suicide is reported on is any acknowledgement or mention of God.  It is ironic (but not surprising!) God who knit us together in our mother's wombs would be left out of the conversation by those who embrace a humanistic or even a nihilistic perspective.  It wasn't long ago I was given paperwork by my doctor to write down my end of life plan, whether I wanted to be fed by others if I was unable to feed myself, or if I would refuse to be given any nutrition if I experience advanced dementia.  Undoubtedly these are uncomfortable topics to dwell on, and I did not view one option as more "courageous" than another.

Courage is defined as, "Bravery; intrepidity; that quality of mind which enables men to encounter danger and difficulties with firmness, or without fear or depression of spirits; valor; boldness; resolution."  Jesus demonstrated immense courage when He went up to Jerusalem knowing He would be betrayed, arrested and crucified when He was innocent of wrongdoing, young and in good health.  My dad showed courage in being subjected to cancer treatments and facing a terminal prognosis without depression or feeling sorry for himself.  He suffered great discomfort and anguish, and was never far from tears.  But as he looked to Jesus in faith, he continued his course gladly until God took him home.  My mum and family also demonstrated courage in caring for Dad faithfully, knowing his time on earth would come to an end in God's time.

In no way do I want to cheapen or dismiss the pain and difficulties that have led people to choose to die on their own terms.  Speaking for myself, however, it does not require any courage for me to live or die on my own terms.  Me living on my own terms is actually one of bondage to selfishness, fear, anxiety, cares and worries.  It is by faith in the living God in whom courage is found we can face a difficult day without fear, to be brave despite weakness and limitations, and to obey God rather than following our own hearts.  God is gracious to allow us to reach our limit, discover He is gracious and merciful, and to learn to trust Him with peace in our hearts and praise on our lips despite pains.  Knowing God gives and takes away, it is right to commit the length of our days to God who has wisely numbered them.

The suffering, sorrow and pain of this life will soon be over--even if it feels like it will never end.  Those who trust in Jesus Christ are assured of eternal life in His presence where there is no illness, pain, tears, sorrow of death.  God gives His people assurance of His kindness today and always as is written in Isaiah 54:10:  "For the mountains shall depart and the hills be removed, but My kindness shall not depart from you, nor shall My covenant of peace be removed," says the LORD, who has mercy on you."  Death is not our friend, advocate or refuge:  God is!  There is no illness God cannot cure, and no condition greater than His love and power to save.  Psalm 27:14 says, "Wait on the LORD; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the LORD!"  Better than waiting to die, we are to wait on the gracious LORD who strengthens us.

God is Reasonable

The almighty God who created all things is beyond all reason due to His omnipotence and power, and yet He is also most reasonable.  Caricatures of God set forth by unbelievers portray Him as being ridiculously unreasonable, easily infuriated, carried away with violence, being unjust and brutal.  This is merely a projection of the worst of man's natural tendencies, and none of these are remotely accurate of who God has revealed Himself to be in the Bible and by the Person of Jesus Christ.  People have done horrid and wicked things in the name of God, but they were not God.  God's holy name ought not be dragged through the mud because evil people claimed to be doing His will--when in reality they acted according to their own wicked desires.

God never makes unreasonable demands of people, for He supplies wisdom and strength for all who trust in Him.  God gave Adam freedom to eat of every tree in the Garden of Eden (including the tree of life) and told him not to eat of the tree of knowledge of good and evil in the midst of the garden.  Adam was plainly warned that should he eat of that tree, he would surely die.  God created Adam and made him a living soul because He desired Adam to live and have enduring fellowship with Him.  Disobedience to the holy God is sin, and sin would bring certain death.  Even as a father or mother warns their child of danger and seeks to protect them, God warned Adam of the consequences of eating from that one particular tree.  When Adam and Eve sinned by eating the fruit, it was they who were being unreasonable in light of God's revelation.

When God spoke to the children of Israel through His word and the prophets, He did not have unreasonable expectations of them.  God did not require anything that we do not expect of our own children.  He said, "...Obey My voice, and I will be your God, and you shall be My people. And walk in all the ways that I have commanded you, that it may be well with you." (Jeremiah 7:23)  The bar was set quite low, for God wanted His people to listen to Him, obey Him and receive correction when they erred.  He did not demand perfection, for that would be unreasonable given our sinful state.  God did not insist they do His will without ever telling them what pleased or displeased Him.  He did not trick or trap a soul.  God spoke using words they could understand and that they agreed to do--except rebelled and disobeyed.  They were the unreasonable ones, assuming the all-knowing God did not know how corrupt they were or the omnipotent God could not discipline them.  Seeing God had revealed Himself by His creation of the world, His mighty works and in writing, God's people were most unreasonable to imagine they could fool Him.

Romans 12:1 says to God's people, "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service."  Since God has revealed Himself in the Person of Jesus, demonstrated His love by dying on the cross, proved His power over sin and death by rising from the dead, pardoned us sinners, declared us righteous and granted us eternal life as His redeemed children, it is entirely reasonable we present our bodies a living sacrifice to God.  It is reasonable for us to avoid sin that brought death and choose to live in the manner that is acceptable and pleasing to God.  It is reasonable we present ourselves to God as His obedient servants, but we are the unreasonable ones in our relationship.  We must be born again to begin to be reasonable--made new creations by faith in Jesus--and we must learn to yield ourselves to the Holy Spirit who fills, gifts and makes us spiritually fruitful.  As little children learn to reason, it is reasonable we as children of God learn to align our thoughts and lives with His wisdom.

Amending Ways and Doings

God commanded Jeremiah to stand at the gate of the temple and proclaim in Jeremiah 7:3:  "Thus says the LORD of hosts, the God of Israel: "Amend your ways and your doings, and I will cause you to dwell in this place."  God repeatedly urged His people to thoroughly amend their ways and their doings because they were out of the way--having gone out of the way because of the sinful dictates of their hearts--and their deeds were wicked as well.  People who heard the word of the LORD through Jeremiah were not receptive to such exhortations.  Those who are wise and fear God will take His word to heart with humility and obedience, knowing God is perfect and we are not.  As long as we live in these bodies of flesh in a world corrupted by sin, amendment of our ways and doings will be required regularly.

The word "amend" is more than "change," for it means to add what is lacking.  When it comes to soil, amendments need to be added and mixed with the existing soil to correct a problem with soil pH, poor water retention, too much clay, lack of organic material and nutrients.  Understanding the concept of amendment requiring adding what is missing was a lightbulb moment for me.  We can take notice of outward sins and make the mistake of working to to cull them from our lives by willpower alone (with a variety of motivations that can even be selfish), and this can make little difference.  One reason we fail to change is we have tried to remove a sinful practice without adding what was missing; we often try to manage symptoms without addressing sin's source in our hearts and minds.  Putting forth effort to stop doing what is wrong without first doing what is right will be a fruitless endeavour, like trying to put on the "new man" without putting off the "old man" with his sinful deeds.  We must first be born again and walk in the Spirit, and then we will not fulfill the lusts of the flesh.  But we don't always walk in the Spirit, do we?

For soil to be properly amended, the ground must be prepared by breaking up the clods and removing debris.  As amendments must be thoroughly integrated, mixed and watered into all the soil, so we should integrate God's word into all aspects of our lives.  God pointed out the need for the children of Israel to amend their ways and doings--and these are not synonyms.  A way speaks of a course of life, a road that is leading to a destination.  Going our own way puts us on the wrong road that always leads to ruin.  Our "doings" speak of our thoughts, decisions and deeds.  One not need to be a licensed driver to understand being on the wrong road will lead us to the wrong destination, and focusing on checking your mirrors and maintaining a safe distance will not put us on the right path.  When we discover our ways are sinful, the only right turn we can make is to Jesus Christ with a repentant, contrite heart.

If we will truly amend our ways and doings, we must acknowledge we need to add what is missing to our lives that only Jesus can supply by His grace.  It is not sufficient to restrain ourselves from murder, but to love one another as Jesus loves us.  Deciding stealing is wrong and we should stop doing it may not ever be put into practice until we find our contentment in Christ and view giving to God and others as a privilege and blessing.  Praise the LORD for the work of the Holy Spirit in our lives who guides us into all truth, who teaches and helps us to comprehend and obey God's word.  Progress may seem slow, but every step of faith in Jesus is truly a monument of God's grace toward us.  Hosea 10:12 says, "Sow for yourselves righteousness; reap in mercy; break up your fallow ground, for it is time to seek the LORD, till He comes and rains righteousness on you."