Found What You're Looking For?

The band U2 had a popular song in my high school days which repeated, "But I still haven't found what I'm looking for."  After climbing mountains, scaling walls, speaking the tongues of angels, and holding the hand of the devil, the desire for satisfaction remained insatiable.  There was still something Bono was looking for but not able to find.  Perhaps he didn't know exactly what he was looking for!  God made a promise to His people who sought Him in Deuteronomy 4:29 after they turned to the LORD wherever they had been scattered:  "But from there you will seek the LORD your God, and you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul."  Again God promised in Jeremiah 29:12-13, "Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart."

A lot of times the things we are seeking are not God and likely have much more to do with us than Him.  A divided heart is a troubling thing because it renders us incapable of seeking the LORD and finding Him.  God can and will be found by His grace, and if we have not found Him we cannot rightly place the blame on God who became human flesh, dwelt among us, died for us, and rose from the grave.  There He is if you will have Him.  Whether man judges Jesus worthy of worship is a very small thing indeed, for over what other man has the voice of the God boomed from heaven, "This is my only begotten Son in whom I am well-pleased?"  God is pleased to rejoice over and reveal Himself to all who trust in the LORD Jesus Christ.

After we place our faith in Jesus and endeavour to follow Him faithfully, undoubtedly we will face cares, sorrows, and troubles in this life.  David, a man God judged to be a man after His own heart, wrote in Psalm 27:13-14:  "I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. ¹⁴ Wait on the LORD; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the LORD!"  David would have fainted and lost heart had he not believed he would see the goodness of God in the land of the living - especially when things went wrong.  It was faith in God and His goodness which provided David courage and strength to persevere in the face of danger and betrayal.  He urged his readers to wait on the LORD and take heart.  God has been incredibly patient with us though our history is one of repeated failure:  shouldn't we be content and joyfully expectant to place our faith in the LORD and wait on Him who is only good?

The singer in the U2 song looked all over and never found what he was looking for, and when we stop looking to Jesus Christ we will start waiting on the wrong things.  If our hopes are pinned on our circumstances changing we might never receive the encouragement we long for.  If we look to others for strength and hope for the future we should not be surprised when discouragement, disillusionment, and frustration become our wretched companions.  But if we will look to the LORD, believing His goodness will be apparent and His grace sufficient, we will discover strength and encouragement everywhere.  When you are cast down or depressed, what are you looking for?  Waiting on the LORD turns our hearts toward Him again and puts our feet back on the solid ground of hope which is never disappointed.  Praise the LORD for the goodness He has shown to us and the encouragement He provides along the way through others.  How I rejoice to know and proclaim the goodness of our God who will be found when we seek Him with our whole hearts.

The Peril of Self-Trust

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; ⁶ in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths."

Proverbs 3:5-6

The tendency for me to trust self is something God has been bringing to my attention lately.  Trusting our own judgments and feelings is as natural to man as breathing - something our bodies do without even having to think about it.  Before the moment of decision we must determine to trust God and have our ways submitted to His will.  God has promised to direct the paths of those who trust Him, but if we do not admit and deal with our sinful habit to lean on our own understanding we will choose wrong.  A.W. Tozer gives good insight in his book The Crucified Life:

Sometimes a trial comes along, and we run to the Bible, pull out a quote and say, "According to this Scripture right here, we got it."  We have certain confidence in ourselves.  We think we know exactly what is going on.  The problem is that we do not know what is happening, and so God will deal with our self-trust.

God certainly knows our feelings.  He knows we are so proud of the way we rightly divide the word of truth and that we can disjoint a text like a butcher getting a chicken ready for the barbecue.  With words are carefully laid out and knowing just where to put your finger on this or just where to put your finger on that, you are too smart for God to bless you.  You know too much.  You can identify everything, but the dear heavenly Father knows you do not really know much at all.  He lets things happen to you until you recognise that you do not know what is happening.  Your friends do not know what is going on either.  And when you go to somebody you feel you can trust, that person will not be able to help you either.  That is actually good news.

It truly would be terrible if we had some holy Saint Francis to whom we all could go to find out where we were, what was happening to us and what life is all about.  God loves us too much for that.  He is trying to teach us to trust Him, not people - to lean on Him, not on people...As a Christian, you know some of the means God uses to teach His people.  As a Christian, you love God, but you are sick of all the nonsense in the world.  Your heart is crying after God just as the doe yearns for the water brooks.  Your heart and flesh cry out for the living God.  Yet in spite of all this, you still trust yourself.  You testify that you love your Bible and that your time of prayer is precious, but still your tendency is to trust yourself. (Tozer, A. W., and James L. Snyder. The Essential Tozer Collection. Bethany House, 2017. The Crucified Life, pages 108-109.)

Knowledge of God and His Word are gifts from God, but let us not lean on our own understanding.  Truth does not change over time, but there remains much truth packed away even in the most familiar verses we do not grasp or practice.  How we need to rely upon God to teach and direct us!  Let us trust the LORD, and when we obey the leading of the Holy Spirit we will begin to mature into the disciples Jesus saved us to be.

Broken - Then Revival

"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart-- these, O God, You will not despise."

Psalm 51:17

If you were described as having "fallen to pieces" or that you experienced a "complete breakdown," would it paint you in a positive or negative light?  We hate to be seen without makeup and are embarrassed to be seen as weak.  When our emotional or physical capacity overflows and we collapse in a heap, it does not present the independent, tough, and resilient persona this world values.  If a team leader was "breaking down" regularly under the pressure of business we would suggest that person should take a break.  This passage written by David in response to his sin reveals a very different picture, how a broken spirit and contrite heart are acceptable in God's sight and not to be ashamed of.

Think of the many sacrifices which people in scripture delighted to offer God.  They brought Him gold, silver, precious stones, money, expensive fabrics, first-fruits of flocks, herds, and produce.  Their generosity was likened to that of a king, and the children of Israel when preparing for the construction of the tabernacle were told to stop giving because too much had already been received.  In the end it wasn't about what was given or how much which God took notice of but the condition of the hearts of sinners who approached Him.  All the gold and gems in the world are no substitute for a shattered soul over guilt of sin and a heart which has been broken into pieces and repents in sorrow.

When this verse was spoken last night during prayer at church, I went to the back of my Bible where under various headings I have listed relevant verses.  The importance of humility before God struck me as I turned to Psalm 138:6-7:  "Though the LORD is on high, yet He regards the lowly; but the proud He knows from afar.⁷ Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me; You will stretch out Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and Your right hand will save me."  Then I looked up Isaiah 57:15 to read God's voice blasting like a trumpet:  "For thus says the High and Lofty One Who inhabits eternity, whose name is Holy: "I dwell in the high and holy place, with him who has a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones."  These verses made clear the necessary connection between humility, brokenness, revival, and abiding in the presence of the Almighty God.

We prefer to have leaders who appear strong and impervious to pressure, but God is not taken in by this outward display:  He looks at the heart.  He brings about circumstances to break us, not to ruin us because pride and arrogance have ruined us already.  When we fall to pieces before Him in repentance and humility that is when the Holy Spirit fire falls.  We do not earn the privilege but when we submit in faith to the will of God in our brokenness He hears, heals, and revives.  Many people look upon the power of God with desire, but it is the contrite heart which is granted the capacity to wield it with the fear of God and trembling.  How precious humility before God is!  And beyond great is our God and worthy to be praised for putting on human flesh and saying as the cross loomed before Him to the Father, "Not my will, but Yours be done."  Before His body was broken on Calvary the sacrifice of His broken heart already had been offered and accepted.

See the risen LORD Jesus!  If we will be revived and raised to newness of life, there must be breaking.  We tend to fight this rather than surrender to it.  This is not the good fight, brothers and sisters, to build a fortress around our hearts to hide how broken we actually are.  When heaviness grips our hearts and a contrite tear spills from our eye a great battle has been won.  Let us fall to pieces before our LORD so He might heal and restore us.  I am not aware of any therapeutic value of crying alone, and what can our tears change?  But when a broken heart cries out to God, He will hear and answer according to His perfect will.  The sacrifice of a broken heart and contrite spirit is an offering everyone can bring.  It is not the rich but the poor in spirit who are granted the kingdom of heaven.

According to God's Will

It is easy for us to mix up "wants" and "needs" and prove ourselves presumptuous.  There are things we take for granted on the level of basic human rights like good health and a consistent job.  We say things like, "She really needs healing" or "He needs a better job."  But are those pressing issues needs from God's perspective?  Isn't He able to do exceedingly above what we ask or think?  When we are ill we desperately desire health, yet the LORD is able to leverage something awful like illness to accomplish divine purposes beyond our comprehension.  Who is man to assert what God ought to do, the One who does awesome things without number?

In my own life (and prayer life too) I have observed a tendency to substitute what I see as beneficial changes in circumstances instead of a closer walk with Jesus and increased faith.  Pains, troubles, and uncertainties are often the impetus for us to seek God with greater fervency, and I suggest one purpose God allows these is so we will learn to seek and trust Him in a greater degree when things are well.  How good it is when instead of superficial and temporary fixes we endeavour to draw closer to Jesus.  When someone needs physical healing they really need Jesus; when a man is out of a job He needs Jesus too.  Jesus is a Saviour, Provider, and Redeemer - especially for those who are born again.

When people don't yet trust in Jesus as Saviour, our prayers can be for the salvation of others.  But once they are being saved we need to rely upon Jesus more than ever and cultivate the practice of seeking Him.  Just because I placed my faith in Jesus Christ for salvation or believe the Bible is the Word of God does not mean I am trusting the Holy Spirit for guidance in my present situation.  If we are facing impossible circumstances in our lives and need a miracle, if we are hoping for the miraculous our longing is misplaced:  we need Jesus, the One who does the miraculous.  If we are seeking the blessing alone we are misguided. for it is Jesus who blesses, heals, and restores souls.  The Giver is better than the gifts.

Proverbs 16:25 says, "There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way of death."  The "good life" we naturally want for ourselves and our children ends in a grave - regardless of the education, relationships, career, money, and achievements gained.  God's ways are higher than our ways, and He is worthy of our trust and adoration.  I am not suggesting we cease praying for others who are struggling or be cavalier concerning trials, but we ought not be presumptuous and assume God wants what we do.  We can see only one way out of trouble, yet the trouble might be the very thing which causes us or others to advance in faith.  If we had our way, we would often short-circuit what God has been working toward all our lives.  Trials and tribulations can be a boon to our faith.  This is the perspective held forth in 1 Peter 4:19:  "Therefore let those who suffer according to the will of God commit their souls to Him in doing good, as to a faithful Creator."

Imagine it, that suffering could be according to the will of God!  Jesus suffered according to the will of God, didn't He?  Sometimes we suffer as the result of our sin, but Jesus was perfectly righteous and still suffered.  See how God redeemed it!  Can't He also redeem our suffering, o we of little faith?  Isn't our unbelief a great cause of our suffering?  With eyes of faith turned towards our Saviour we can rejoice in suffering, knowing our LORD loves us and suffered for our sakes.

In God's Likeness

"As for me, I will see Your face in righteousness; I shall be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness."

Psalm 17:15

David saw with eyes of faith the reality of a future no man could imagine unless God revealed it to him.  This reminds me of what Job declared in Job 19:25-27:  "For I know that my Redeemer lives, and He shall stand at last on the earth; ²⁶ And after my skin is destroyed, this I know, that in my flesh I shall see God, ²⁷ Whom I shall see for myself, and my eyes shall behold, and not another. How my heart yearns within me!"  David and Job both knew the death of the body was not the end.  Their flesh would be destroyed and see corruption, but they would ultimately be raised immortal and incorruptible.  Such is the enduring future for all those deemed righteous through the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

Job spoke of seeing God, but what caught my attention is David knew he would be raised in God's likeness.  It is one thing to observe a person with your eyes, but another thing altogether to be likened to them.  David knew satisfaction beyond explanation would be his when he awoke in God's likeness.  I am not aware of a promise to this end in the Law, but David received this revelation from the Holy Spirit even as the apostle John related in 1 John 3:2, "Beloved, now we are children of God; and it has not yet been revealed what we shall be, but we know that when He is revealed, we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is."  Paul also wrote in 1 Corinthians 15:51-52:  "Behold, I tell you a mystery: we shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed-- ⁵²  in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed."  And what a profound change this will be.

We are transformed on the inside when we are born again through faith in Jesus, and we shall be changed physically into the likeness of Christ after we depart this earth.  We will not look like Him, but we will be like Him.  All human beings share the same basic features, and our risen LORD Jesus remains a man.  Upon graduation to eternal glory we will not be made into angels, stars, or disembodied spirits, but our perishable body will be made into an imperishable one likened to Jesus after His resurrection.  We see the future dimly, but the day is coming when we will see our Saviour face to face.  That is something Job and David spoke of, a future assured for all those who are made righteous through faith in Jesus.  If we look forward to a holiday, the big game, or special gatherings with glad anticipation, then it is only proper for us to be excited about our eternal future in the presence of God.  Everything we look forward to on earth passes by quickly and is overshadowed by future plans, but our glorious future will remain in the present forever.

The Sustaining Word

Elijah was a prophet of God who experienced distressing and discouraging times.  After great victory by God's grace against the prophets of Ba'al on Carmel, all gladness was quickly soured by threats from wicked queen Jezebel.  Many preachers and Christians have been incredulous concerning Elijah's response, almost accusing him of forgetting what God had done or minimising the impact of a death threat.  Elijah was certainly a man of God and had the Spirit of God upon him, but he was a man like the rest of us.  At a point the demands and pressures of life can become unbearable.  I have experienced lonely moments like this, when trials immediately deflate us of joy - and my life wasn't even on the line.  A heart at rest in the victory of God can be easily battered and beaten at the whim of disappointing news, and our enemies are not merciful.

The prophet, upon hearing the threats of Jezebel, isolated himself from his servant and went on alone.  He despaired of life, and it felt like dying was better than living.  God in His grace would provide all Elijah needed to continue, both physically and spiritually.  1 Kings 19:5-8 says, "Then as he lay and slept under a broom tree, suddenly an angel touched him, and said to him, "Arise and eat." ⁶ Then he looked, and there by his head was a cake baked on coals, and a jar of water. So he ate and drank, and lay down again. ⁷ And the angel of the LORD came back the second time, and touched him, and said, "Arise and eat, because the journey is too great for you." ⁸ So he arose, and ate and drank; and he went in the strength of that food forty days and forty nights as far as Horeb, the mountain of God."

God sent an angel who provided Elijah with bread and water twice to sustain him for the journey which stretched ahead Elijah was not yet aware of.  In the strength of the food God provided Elijah pressed on for forty days and nights until he came to the "mountain of God."  Here is a great picture of the life of faith in Jesus Christ, how He is our Living Bread and He supplies the Living Water we need to persevere through this earthly pilgrimage.  It's hard to keep on going; it's tough when you feel alone.  All the continual effort and caring doesn't seem to accomplish much.  And if we look to ourselves, others, or to our circumstances for hope there is none to be found.  But pains and discouragements have a way of recentring our gaze on the LORD, His Word, and His promises.  If we don't eat or drink spiritually we will waste away and be unable to continue, and this is a reason why many gifted and called servants of God quit.

Yesterday I was treated to the sustaining power of God's Word throughout the day.  Let's just say the day did not go like I thought or hoped it would.  In my morning reading I came upon Psalm 13:5-6:  "But I have trusted in Your mercy; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation. ⁶ I will sing to the LORD, because He has dealt bountifully with me."  The Psalmist David wrote this when he was feeling alone and forgotten.  He experienced sorrow daily and felt beaten up by his enemies.  But he came to a place when, without any change of his feelings or circumstances, his perspective shifted to focus on God.  David was reminded of the mercy of God and he had been granted salvation from God.  This caused a change in his mind and heart and he sang praises to God because of the bountiful way God had dealt with him.  Boy, these verses encouraged me all day long when temptation to despair came!  I had salvation going for me, and how bountiful God has been towards me!

How good is the Word of God, and how well it sustains us!  The Word is compared to good seed, and when sown in the heart of a believer it is very fruitful according to its own kind.  Our circumstances are like the sharp blade of the plough which painfully open our hard hearts to receive God's Word.  It does not produce baked loaves of bread which can be eaten straight away:  the grain it produces can be eaten raw, but it must be threshed, prepared, and ground into flour.  Elijah had cakes prepared for him by the angel, and God prepares great bounty for us to feast on.  Who knows what the next forty days holds for us, what God will accomplish in that time, or how He will lead us in pressing on!  All I know is we need the Bread of Life and the Living Water, the Holy Spirit.  Thank God He will sustain us, and His Word is an indispensable supply for all our need so He might lead us to Himself.

Hosanna in the Highest

"Then those who went before and those who followed cried out, saying: "Hosanna! 'Blessed is He who comes in the name of the LORD!' ¹⁰ Blessed is the kingdom of our father David that comes in the name of the Lord! Hosanna in the highest!"

Mark 11:9-10

The scene described in Mark 11 took place when Jesus rode in triumph into Jerusalem on a donkey.  People laid down their clothes and palm branches before Him as before royalty, and even the children shouted, "Hosanna!"  Not being a Hebrew speaker, I needed to look up the word for the definition.  The Strong's Concordance explains the meaning like this:  "oh save!; an exclamation of adoration."  Jesus was worthy of such adoration and praise, for He is the Saviour God promised who would save people from their sins.

The Jews which cried out the words of Psalm 118:25-26 were an occupied and oppressed people by Roman rule.  How they longed for the promised Messiah to deliver them from their enemies and restore the kingdom of David to its former glory.  It is fitting Jesus would humbly ride into Jerusalem in fulfilment of scripture in Zechariah 9:9, and not as a Roman general on a chariot pulled by white horses.  The cross of Calvary loomed before our meek Saviour, and He would save not only the Jews but provide salvation for all who repent and believe through His sacrifice.  The people shouted, "Oh save!" and they had no idea how great a salvation Jesus would accomplish through His death and resurrection.  Jesus would do much more than establish an earthly throne which perishes, but by His shed blood would establish an eternal kingdom of which there will be no end.

How glorious is our Saviour, a One also to be greatly adored.  We reserve the word "adorable" to attend the cute and cuddly, but Jesus deserves our adoration and appreciation.  The beauty of Christ transcends anything we can admire with the eyes or desire in our hearts.  His power to save is greater than all the armies of the world; the praise of which He is worthy is greater than all men and the angelic hosts shouting in unison.  We say "Hosanna" to urge God to save and to adore Him at the same time, a wonderful picture of how He is worthy and able to meet our every need.  I need salvation as much now as ever before, and the more I read about Jesus and spend time with Him my love for Him grows too.  No matter how much I love Him, His love for me is infinitely greater and constant.

As fitting as it was for Jesus to be praised when He rode into Jerusalem, so it is right for all to exalt Him today.  Throughout the day "Hosanna" by Carl Tuttle has been singing in my heart:  won't you sing along?

Hosanna, hosanna,

hosanna in the highest

Hosanna, hosanna,

hosanna in the highest

Lord we lift up Your name

With a heart full of praise

Be exalted, oh Lord my God

Hosanna in the highest

Glory, glory,

glory to the King of kings

Glory, glory,

glory to the King of kings

Lord we lift up Your name

With a heart full of praise

Be exalted, oh Lord my God

Glory to the King of kings

Glancing or Gazing?

Last night at youth my wife Laura shared an observation from a book:  in museums and art galleries there are often glancers and gazers.  Some are so intent on seeing everything they breeze through the exhibits, perhaps only briefly pausing for something which catches their interest.  The visit to the museum is a task to be completed, and with the aim of seeing everything possible only a cursory glance will do.  For gazers, however, spending quality time with a work of art cannot be rushed. They are content to contemplatively view a painting from various angles for hours.  They can be seen sitting or standing staring at the canvas, even writing down notes.  The glancers think of such people, "What are they looking at?  What of interest can they see in that?  Am I missing something?"

If I must choose a side which fits my natural bent, I tend toward the glancing side.  I am largely a destination oriented person.  Scenery is nice, but it isn't worth stopping the car which slows progress toward my intended destination.  At the same time, I would rather spend more time in the Australian War Memorial or Yad Vashem (World Holocaust Remembrance Center in Isarel) than rush through.  I am not a big art fan, but I believe the memory of people ought to be remembered and honoured.  I find the tales of courage, bravery, and sacrifice move my heart and sober my mind, and in that environment one must walk slowly and think deeply.  When I am rushed my feet move but my heart remains unmoved.

A good question to consider:  how do you approach the reading of the Bible?  It is God's Word written to us, and our familiarity with the text or our aim to tick "Bible reading" or "devotions" from our daily checklist can make us glancers rather than gazers.  Glancers are off to the next verse so quick they don't think deeply about what God is saying or how it applies to their own life.  I think everyone can fall into the habit of glancing rather than gazing and grazing on the good Word, giving time for our minds and hearts to digest all the LORD is saying.  As a cow is content to stand and chew its cud for a good part of the day, our engagement with the messages in God's Word be similar.  It is one thing to hear the Word or read it, but another thing to take it personally.

Reading the Word is most profitable and necessary, and it is intended - more than viewing art or visiting a memorial - to not only move us but change us.  Reading the Bible is not the end in itself, but to transport us into the presence of the Living God.  People can be emotionally moved by beautiful songs and artwork; they can shed tears as they feel the pain and loss of victims of war.  Many things in this world are designed to transport us somewhere physically or emotionally, and God has provided us His Word to move our hearts towards Him, to cause our gaze to be fixed upon Him.  We are rarely moved at a glance, but when our hearts and minds are engaged to consider and think deeply we can be drawn into the very presence of God.  Let the Word do its work in your heart and mind to transport you, and as we gaze on our Saviour may our hearts be moved to praise and worship Him in Spirit and truth.

Flipping the Canvas

It is amazing what a change in perspective will do.  I can adequately paint a wall with the right equipment, but I have never learned how to paint artistically.  Artists are able to see what others cannot and have the ability to bring an empty canvas to life with colour and detail.  It impresses me how people mix oil paint and use brushes to create pictures with a photographic and textured quality.  Bob Ross on KPBS often said anyone could paint, and I suppose he is right depending on how you define "painting."  I can apply paint to a canvas like a child, but I haven't painted anything recognisable yet.  I have seen paintings done by apes and elephants far superior to my efforts.

Perhaps I am easy to impress, but I always enjoy presentations when an artist basically attacks the canvas with quick swipes, splatters, and flourishes.  After a minute, when I still have no idea what is being painted, suddenly the artist with a quick flip of the canvas brings a recognisable image into view almost like magic:  a face, a scene, something which remained completely hidden to my eyes until the painter kindly turned it right side up for all to enjoy.  The artist knew much I did not know:  he knew what he was doing when I had no idea.  It required a change of my perspective - done for me by the artist - and then I could better appreciate the end result.

During our lives there will be many times when we struggle to understand or appreciate what God is doing because we do not have the correct perspective - His perspective.  In these times we often lose sight of God entirely.  We try to make sense of something we cannot make sense of no matter how hard we try.  Now God doesn't always flip the painting over to show us what He is up to, and He is under no obligation to.  But we are called to trust Him even when we don't understand, trusting the character and promises of God in His Word.  Focusing on ourselves or problems in the world cannot bring the peace and rest available when we look to Jesus.

God is able to do what a painter cannot do with oils and brushes:  He sometimes allows painful circumstances so He might bring a bountiful blessing from them.  He can take a severe illness and make it an asset rather than a destroyer.  He can take the loss of a job or promotion and use it to strengthen our faith in Him.  The deepest pains can lead to profound purpose which remained previously hidden all our lives.  By the grace of God from death can spring life; the lost can be found, and failed dreams can transform to enduring hope.  What would crush us God uses to strengthen, and even our faults redeemed for His praise.  I do not know how God does this, and nor can I explain how a painter can paint upside down.  But I know God is able to do everything - far beyond my ability to understand.

I daresay God at times turns our lives upside down so we might re-centre our gaze on what counts and will endure.  His ways are glorious, and His works perfection.  He is able to make this blind man see and He will do the same for all who look to Him in faith.  We do not always understand, nor can we explain.  But by His grace we can seek our great God and know certainties where all else is darkness and shadow.  In God there is no variation or shadow of turning (James 1:17):  it is we who must be turned!  Rightly Asaph wrote in Psalm 80:19, "Turn us again, O LORD God of hosts, cause thy face to shine; and we shall be saved."